I Am An OCD Warrior
Getting diagnosed with all these illnesses actually ended up bringing out another illness: OCD. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is a mental health disorder that involves unwanted, intrusive thoughts which trigger distress, which are then tried to be dispelled by utilizing compulsions. OCD is extremely misunderstood.
When most think of OCD personas like Howard Hughes from the movie, “The Aviator”, springs to mind. Or, even phrases like, “I’m so OCD.” Figures like Howard Hughes, and those of us with contamination OCD, are the most seen examples of the mental illness. But Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is so much more than fearing dirt. It goes well beyond that.
OCD is the stuff that nightmares are made of. Imagine being so totally engrossed in something that you lose all sense of space or time. Now imagine that something being at the forefront of your mind every moment, of every day, until you can no longer think of anything or anyone else. Take it a step further, and attach every negative emotion you can think of to said thought. Now you have a very small (minuscule) glimpse of what it’s like to have OCD.
The disorder can totally disrupt your life. This is exactly what it did to mine. I cannot overstate the impact OCD had (and still has) on my life. At one point I was unable to go outside. That’s how drastic things became! Thankfully, I was able to admit I needed help and sought therapy through a company called Nocd. One of the best decisions I’ve ever made in my life!